Sometimes I just feel really, frickin’ stupid… 💩

I’ve kept a tiny secret from my boyfriend, and basically everybody else as well, but I had to change hosts. Again. I said I was going to a while back, because the web host I chose during the early spring sucked balls and I got really so annoyed with them that I started looking for another one practically immediately. I found a new one, they’re called “Egensajt” which basically means “Your own site” or “your website” cramped into one word. They are also very cheap, they provide SSL easily with let’s encrypt and also provide a bunch of other useful stuff I plan on starting using later, WP-cli, SSH and git.

WTF is going on in my mind lately? Well, (not)learning to code and shitty web hosts and the struggles to find the energy to focus on the right thing!

However, my trip over here hasn’t been the greatest either, due to me being an idiot, but I guess everything is fine now at least. I’ve spammed the support a gazillion times for the past weeks since I started my account there, because I’ve struggled a bit with the move of other domains, the obligate down time while moving a website, installations of Drupal, WordPress Multisite and Limesurvey and a few other things.

The good things are though that, except for the Drupal problems(I’ll get to that one later), all the other issues are fixed and were basically down to two things; Me, having a brain that requires that everything should happen in an instant and me being (yet again) a complete, uneducated n00b regarding techie stuff.

All of this have just taught me that I really need to learn how to code, so I can understand all of this fun stuff for real, but I haven’t been able to find the energy for that all spring, basically. I’ll explain a bit more below, but I have my reasons for doing all this, even though it’s practically unnecessary…

I realized that you can’t have folder listing or anti-hotlink (or whatever it’s called) activated if you want to install php applications with your web host. I had no idea about that! Folder listings make php apps to not activate, and anti hotlink makes you get broken images if you’ve got SSL activated.

I also had the problem with WordPress. Like I’ve mentioned before my setup is basically this:

  • I have a multisite install where all my public blogs and websites live, except for this one at the moment.
  • I have another WP multisite on a separate subdomain where I do all the testing for the main site.
  • I have this install for this single domain, that has moved around a bit, but will probably stay as a single install and separate from the others just because it’s for the best. I think.
  • I create other various subdomains and use other domains from other web hosts I’ve registered that I use for testing purposes. Most of them are WP related, but some are for other PHP clients, like Drupal and Limesurvey.

Since moving to yet another host, I’ve tried to have my normal setup and I finally got everything to work, but Drupal did not work like it should for some strange reason. The reason I wanted to play around with Drupal is due to a thing at work. I got an idea and figured out that Drupal can basically solve everything, but sadly my proposal was denied for now which basically just made me more upset 🙁 . I did most of the Drupal testing at my previous host (Inleed) while I was waiting for the main domain to move over to the new host. Then, as I got to the new host, Drupal did not work. It was practically impossible to install it, because I fell into the classic Drupal trap where I got access denied, even though I was the admin and everything. In the end I had to ask the web host to install it for me, but it was to no avail.

During all of this I had also installed Limesurvey and the test sites, but no matter what I did the templates from the clients, aka the text inside the php files where showing when I visited the url and I could not install, or login. Turned out, like I mentioned above that this was due to the folder listing being activated. When I turned it off I could install the applications. Then the other issues came up…

First of all I noticed that the clients had broken images when I viewed the sites with SSL. After a bit of googling again, I discovered that it was due to the anti-hotlinking was activated. Also I had problems with wildcard…

Yesterday I noticed that my testing site did not have an .htaccess any longer and the network settings had vanished. This I have no idea why it happens, but as I’ll explain what happened below, maybe these two are related?

In order to use WordPress Multisite you have to setup a wildcard A record in your dns setting. The thing is, I’ve done that like a billion times and I know what it is. The difference is that with this new host, I thought I’d done that correctly, but I had not. I did not set the wildcard as a dns record. Instead my web host turned the wildcard as an alias for my main domain. I also had no idea there was a difference! When I changed it from an alias to a proper A record wildcard dns, I could access my sites again. The old problem of the redirect thing happened again until this was changed and I felt depressed and like a total idiot while I couldn’t figure this out. I also decided I did not want to bother the support again either, even though they get paid to help me out. I just want stuff to work!

The only problem I have now is that WordpPress – all of my installs are incredibly slow when it comes to updating plugins, the core and saving post and other changes. Otherwise it’s pretty fast and works well. I upgraded the PHP memory to 256 MB, and I’ve also activated the Memcached that this web host has. I also turned on Varnish Cache that’s also an option here. So far it has helped a little, but it’s still extremely slow when I want to install or upgrade something. I just hope that this post will publish as usual to social media as well. Maybe it’ll work properly in a day or two…

An important note!

The reason for me switching host once again is due to several reasons. I said that I’d probably do this in a couple of months and that was the truth. I’ve had a really painful spring at work and also in my private life and playing around with php clients, like WordPress and my newly found interest in learning code really helps with not feeling bored and/or restless as fuck.

I still should point out, that me wanting to learn code has turned into crap, basically which is not surprising due to all my illnesses and how my mind works. I have made up my mind that I’m gonna finish the C# class I started a while back, but I’ve been way to tired to focus on that, due to a gazillion other stuff going on that steals my thunder. I really hate it, because I’m so into this. It feels like the right time is now to start a new beginning, but I guess I won’t be able to until I’m not this tired anymore and there are no other problems lurking around the corner… I can’t really explain this tiredness either. I just feel it and the only thing that helps are shitty crap-stuff with the usual stuff. Aka, playing around with code and knowing nothing with WP, Drupal and Limesurvey being the test subjects as of today.

I’d like to learn as much as possible, but everywhere I turn – there’s trouble for some reason – because I don’t understand code! I’ll probably blog a bit more about it later, and for those who understand Swedish, I’ll make a post soon as well to explain myself a bit more. Basically, I’m stuck in a circle and I’m doing what I can to keep up and not lose my mind, but no matter what I do, I feel bored, lost or angry and disappointed.

In less than a few weeks, me and the BF will move to another apartment that’s closer to everything and I bet that after having a long vacation from work, I’ll find my strength somehow. I think living right where we live now is one small contributing factor to why I feel like i have these past months. I really thought it was gonna be a life changer, but all the move to this exact place was, was nothing but meh. Besides living more to the south in Sweden and having the luxuries of living so close to Malmö, it’s not been that great. After the move I hope I’ll learn to code a bit more and hopefully I can focus more on blogging instead of struggling like I have AND need to in order to feel a little like myself these days.

Thanks for reading this far!

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