The dangers of caring way too fucking much…

I haven’t written a single goddamn thing in this blog for almost 6 months or so. Nobody cares, barely a visit since the last post, and that’s all fine and completely normal. This post will be a little about blog stats, and other shit that’s been going on in my life since I last wrote something of use here.

Ze blog stats.

Yeah. I really don’t give a flying F*ck about not getting readers to this blog. It’s pretty rational since I have written basically nothing since the blog started somewhere during 2016. Basically I’m just happy I’ve got my domain back, and I intend to keep it no matter what. When I went back to WP for the last time ever during the summer of 2014, I made a personal commitment that I’d stop caring about readers, getting comments, and people caring in general about my posts. It has worked, at least for my blogging. Not so much for my disastrous YouTube career, but I don’t have the strength to care, really. Haven’t uploaded a video since May 2016 either, even though I’ve tried. Every time I do try to make a video or do SOMETHING, some thing has to happen, which means that I am unable to create a video at that point or do something else I’d like to do for that simple moment. It’s like fate is trying to intervene with whatever I want in life sometimes. It’s really frickin’ annoying when it happens as well.

Another annoying thing regarding stats are those found on my profile and pages on Google+. It used to be my absolute favorite social network, but since people started to not give a shit about me, or anybody else (really? I have no clue), I have simply given up on that social network. From now on, and basically for the past months and year I’m gonna be using it the worst way possible, which is to just post links to blog posts I’ve written and keep not caring about if I get +1’s or not. It’s just to tiresome to even care, and I keep mentioning whenever I leave a comment on somebody else’s posts that I’m boring, nobody cares and that G+, regardless of the past years fantastic upgrade, has become a thing of the past and I miss the interaction I used to have with all my G+ friends over hangouts and such.

The secret…

I have a partial secret. Some people know this, but I’m really not allowed to talk about it officially, like it’s some big life-changing deal. The problem is that for, this “secret” is big. At least for me. It’s bugging the crap out of me that I’m not allowed to write about in in my blogs, or talk about it on YouTube. I have so many things to say about this, because it makes me so happy! Oh, well. Someday I’ll probably be able to let you all know what it is, and then I hope it’s another turning point in life, that’ll get me the attention I’m almost seeking, but more likely – to spread the news I’ve been wanting to spread for years now.

The fatness that is me.

I’ve gained more weight the past year and it makes me miserable for many reasons. I’m trying to do my best to make the pounds disappear, but since long, I’ve accepted this crap and I’m prepared to die young due to being overweight, with the dream of succeeding on losing weight if it’s possible. I know exactly what caused this weight gain, and I know exactly what I should do to get rid of them forever, but if that happens – we’ll see. There are too many obstacles in my way for me to be to hopeful about succeeding…

Why the F*ck isn’t the Google Pixel in my pocket?

I’ve ranted like crazy about this for the past months in my Swedish blog. The Google Pixel has not been released generally in Europe, like the Nexus series. My 6P is getting to big, due to my huge weight gain and now I’m going completely mad about what phone is gonna be my next one? I really frickin’ want a Nexus/Pixel, even though the price for the Pixel is batshit crazy high, but it’s most likely not to happen. I’m even thinking evil, pure evil thoughts about switching to iPhone, and it drives me nuts! I need a smaller phone, with a great camera and all other great stuff about smartphones, because if I do not lose weight, I can no longer have a bigger phone. I really like having a 6P, even though it’s starting to go “bad”. I’m having battery issues and I daily have to charge my phone twice now. That sucks. I’m also a bit curious about the next Blackberry phone, which will have a physical keyboard. I’ve missed that, but it’s far from important for me. I’m guessing that my next phone will either be the Samsung S8 or the horror of an iPhone, either the SE or the 7 or upcoming 7S/8. I really do not want an iPhone, but if worst comes to worst, it’ll have to happen, I guess, since iPhones are kinda good anyways. It just lacks the most used features I need, like the do not disturb system that can be set like a calendar, or sense calendar specific items. I also hate the iOS UI and all the struggles with logging in at the app store (I always have to log in a thousand times, and still not get access to the app store even though I have the correct password and username).

The move back “home”.

In the beginning of December of 2016, me and the BF moved back to Skåne, which is the most southern part of Sweden. We now reside between Malmö and Lund, and we like it here. The reason for moving back was because Henrik got a job at Unity 3d in Copenhagen, and I’ve been smart to save up my points so we could get an apartment pretty easily if we were ever gonna come back here. We’re not gonna stay in this apartment forever, though. The plan is to wait if it feels good and works fine for Henrik, and if it does, we’ll start looking for a new place during the summer of 2017. We’re really hoping to get a small house, like a town house (radhus in Swedish) and as close to Hyllie Station as possible, since it’s the closest one to Copenhagen from here. The next place, will however be as perfect as possible. Great Dane friendly, preferably with two large bedrooms, two bathrooms, storage, parking spot or garage for an electric car and also a lawn of some sort.

Generally, I’m fine. My life is pretty much exactly the same from when we lived in Växjö. I’m completely exhausted most days, yet still I have a new energy I haven’t felt for years. I guess it’s due to being back in Skåne again, with all the lacking snow and better temperatures, not to mention all the stuff that’s a lot easier to do now, like shopping online and eating out.

Oh, and to answer the title of this blog post? The stuff that has been happening to me for the past months are shit I shouldn’t care about at all, really. Everything will work itself out eventually, but personally I can not stop to care about the itty bitty things that keep annoying me, and that’s why I go nuts and get angry, disappointed etc. And like I said, even though I’m in this “mess” of stuff, I’m actually happy. Who could’ve thunk?

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